I’m a planner. It’s just what I do. My dry-erase calendar hanging on my wall in my room and my on-the-go planner are my best friends. If every event, meeting, exam, quiz, time to work, or homework assignment isn’t wrote down inside, I feel a little lost. I’m that girl who looks like a fricken mom at the grocery store because I have a wrote out grocery list in one hand and a to-do list in the other. Talk about not looking available to guys. Maybe part of it is my OCD or maybe part of it is just who I am. I’m not sure but I love the satisfaction of having my life planned out and for someone like me, I don’t understand how people can function without planning ahead. I love being busy and I can’t imagine not being. I’m just good at it and I like being involved in different stuff. Again I have no idea why, it’s just who I am.
Then I met someone who taught me it’s ok to not have every minute of every day planned out. YOU WONT DIE if you’re not sure what you’re doing tomorrow or three weeks from now. I love how different we are. I’m realizing that that person is teaching me to be a little more spontaneous a little more every day. Ok by no means will my planner be thrown out the window, but I’m learning that relaxation and time for yourself is a necessity that should be added to the calendar every now and then and you can play things by ear.
They always say it’s the little things in life that matter most and sometimes you just have to stop and smell the roses, but do you? I know sometimes I am just always so go, go, go I miss watching my favorite TV show that week or miss roomie wine night. I’m learning that balance is key and it’s ok to let loose every once in awhile or else I may seriously die of a stress-related heart attack at age 20. Wouldn’t be my proudest moment.
The thing is, I know who I am and I love it. So what that I like to plan and like to be on my A-game all the time. People do accept for me that. While watching the Ugly Truth with my best friend the other night (in one of 2 hours of spare time in a while) she turned to me and said, “This girl is so you!” after Katherine Heigl tells her best friend about the date she went on last night and the guy only has 3 of the 10 characteristics needed to marry him on her list. I laughed. Not exactly like me, I’d like to say I don’t really have a list about stuff like that but I will say I want the best out of everything. I think that’s why I work so hard. Why accept second place when you know with just a little more work you could be first? Why just date somebody because they take you on fancy dates, but do they make you laugh too?
I think what I’m getting at is what we have to find are people who accept us for ourselves. For me, that means I’m that girl who likes to-do lists, being busy, going off on rants when somebody makes me mad at work, being a clean freak, loves to write, loves a glass of wine after a long week, a movie night snuggled on the couch, and chocolate every day never killed anybody :) I love that my best friends accept me for all of the bad stuff along with the good too :) Find somebody that accepts you for you. Not who everybody thinks you might be, but the real you.
